Well, I’ve made the decision that seeing as I’m getting absolutely nowhere with a particular musculoskeletal doctor in Scotland, I’m going to take myself over to Chicago for a few treatments in Prolotherapy with one of the best prolo specialists in the world, Dr Ron Hauser.

Dr Hauser was taught by Gustav Hemwall who was considered to be the world’s leading authority on Prolotherapy when he was alive, so when you think about it that way, Dr Hauser’s right at the top of the game!  So, I’m pretty confident he’ll sort out my joint issues once and for all.  Prolotherapy should be mainstream, really.  There’s so many folk who’d benefit from it and could live much better lived just froma bunch of inflammation-creating injections.  It’s just a pity I have to spend an absolute fortune on going to America to get myself healed…  Still, I’ve never shied away from an adventure and this will certainly be one.  Just imagine… It takes between3 and 6 treatments for someone to be completely cured from their chronic pain issues.  That’s 3 to 6  trips to Chicago!  I’m excited about it aswell as disappointed at all the hassle and expense.  But I’m sure it’ll all be worth it.  I’m looking forward to the day I can actually lie on my back without getting sore or walk to work without getting sore hips or do yoga or meditate or do pratyahara or visualise… Or just live, really.  It’s ridiculous how much stuff I’ve just accepted as “normal” and have carried on.  Right now, it’s difficult to bend over and put on a pair of shoes, so that makes me apprehensive about going out.  And it’s just as hard to do anything around the house for fear of doing my joints in…  But all that can end soon.

I was hoping to come here and write a post about the grand scheme of things and reality, etc, but it’s just not where my mind is today.  I officially decided about going to Chicago on Monday when I got a call from my mum asking me how my last appointment went.  I told her I felt no different although there was a guy in Chicago who seemed pretty good, at which point she jus told me to go for it.  I think that’s the kick up the arse I needed really – getting no results from the doc I’m currently seeing was doing my head in majorly at the weekend and I think there’s no price to real, true health so bring it on!

Things are going to be different though, once I’m healed and back up and running again.  Yoga is going to be very different.  Now it’s going to be more a case of working the yoga of feeling at one with society as opposed to just asana practice or pranayama.  I’ll do that obviously, but I’ll just be moving to my end range of motion and staying there, breathing into it and moving on.  The real focus now is just going to be on living life.  Which does make me feel a little apprehensive.

There’s a big blank wall in front of all that stuff at the moment and I have no access to what sort of stuff I’ll encounter once I do start the yoga up again and my visualisation skills are virtually non-existant due to not being able to sit or lie down for any length of time without feeling sore.  So there’s a whole world of stuff to bring up in that regard – a proper pandora’s box.  So I’d love to say I’m planning on this, that and the next thing but in reality all I’m planning at the moment is to heal myself.

I can’t think of much else to say right now, other than it’s Easter and I have 4 days off work in a row – which is good.  I watched the last part of  “The Passion” series the other day and although I’m not a Christian, I felt very very moved indeed.  It was beautiful.  The guy who played Jesus was incredible and he had a genuinely holy look in his eye.  Very awe-inspiring, moving, inspirational and beautiful.  It fills the old heart up, so it does.  I had some great dreams afterwards aswell.

The one thing I’m looking forward to the most when I get healed is just being able to utilise the power of my own intention.  Because when that’s taken away from you (as it has from me (or more to the point, when you take it away from yourself )) it generates a huge desire to get yourself back to 100% capacity again.

But I think it also produces a softer heart and a more compassionate disposition.  I definately feel as though I have more compassion for folk less fortunate than myself.  I don’t think it’s necessary to go through something like I’ve been going through either, in order to get to this space.  People can choose to renounce certain aspects of their life.  But in our world, these things happen at a snails pace.  Perhaps with the global turmoil going on, vast swathes of people the world over will have to deal with having less stuff in their life – less money, less material goods, etc and perhaps from this state of lack, people will learn how to be more compassionate.  It would coincide with the whole 2012 thing.

Anyhoo, that’s enough for the noo.

More soon.

Ryan.