I posted a poem up here a day or two ago and brought it down yesterday.  On reading it again, it actually sounds like one of the best I’ve ever written (if not the best) but I brought it down on the account that more revealing than I’m comfortable with.  I may put it up again at some point or I may not.

I’m inspired yet again by the Taoist idea of investing in loss and the Yogic/Buddhist ideas of non-attachment (which are more or less the same thing).  I’m finding myself a little childishly frustrated that some of the stocks I’ve bought are going down and am cosidering cutting my losses on those and buying into better ones.  I’ve came to realise there’s a definate futility to trading stocks in the hope to beat the market…

There is a book called “Reminiscences of a stock operator” by a guy called Edwin Lefévre who tells a story of a guy called Jesse Livermore who was a famous trader during the 30s.  After becoming an absolute master of trading stocks and earning millions of dollars (which was a lot back then) he ended up broke and committed suicide.

The moral of the book was basically that you may be able to beat one stock or two, but you can never ever beat the stock market!  Ie, you could never ever make a decent living out of it.

What got me though was yet another realisation of the fact that there’s never anything to be gained from spending all your energy on trying to amass wealth.  I was in a betting shop with a few colleagues today (put a wee punt on the grand national for tomorrow) and one of them started playing on a poker machine… He put in a pound and his credit was up at £7.50.  I distinctly told him, “Now, just so you know, you CAN walk away from here at any time you like, you know…”  And in his usual humour another colleague said, “Ah but that’s not how you play it though – it’s no fun that way!  You have to lose all your money!  THEN you walk away!”  And sure enough, that’s exactly what the guy did.

Trading the stock market’s no different.  It’s nothing more than an educated gamble.  Yes you can make money but you could also lose money.

But to me, the only thing which feels right is things which grow in the most natural way.  Things you can actually depend on.

I’ve always been inspired by plants and their ability to grow.  You look at a plant one day and then again the next day and it doesn’t look any different at all.  But it does grow.  Providing it has all the heat, moisture, nutrients and CO2 it needs – it will most definitely grow.  Well apart from it some greenfly infests it or something.

But maybe there’s the moral of it all – there’s no certainty in anything because if there was a plant out there that was completely immune to any disease going, maybe it would end up taking over the world, becoming so strong than it ended up killing all other plant life on the planet?  Does this sound like any particular Earth species you’re aware of?

Perhaps my own current obsession with stock (and money in general) is a microcosm of humanity’s desire to become completely immortal and take over the planet.  It’s not new knowledge that we’re having an adverse effect on the world… None at all.

The only way out is awareness.  Lets say a crop of oranges gets destroyed by some wierd seasonal disease.  You’d think, “ah bugger, where will I get my vitamin C from now??”

Grapes.

Grapes have plenty of vitamin C and more than enough to replace the vitamin C in oranges.  As for the fibre content, you can get the fibre in oranges from elsewhere – bran, oats, vegetables.  So one season with no oranges does not mean the end of the world.  The way out of these situations is the creativity which comes from awareness.  And awareness MUST come first.

Because when there is no awareness, how can there be any creativity?  Why would you create a solution to a problem when you’re not even aware there is a problem in the first place?  I reckon the only real way to make money is to provide solutions to problems people are facing.  REAL problems.  People’s awareness is what’s on sale.  Consciousness is the only commodity.

I guess what I’m trying to do here is to gain a wider perspective on how people earn money and what people’s motivations are, really.  I said that the only way to make money is to provide solutions to problems people are facing…  What if the powers that be continually led us to believe that there are all sorts of threats to our livelihood (yes terrorism, financial meltdown and all that) but that those threats never actually existed in the first place?   Indeed, Mr David Icke.

I’m not here to wax about conspiracy though, I accept that these panics are continually created to keep us all in a state of fear so they can continue leaching off us.  Honestly, when Gordon Brown mentioned how the G20 thing was like the start of a “New World Order” I felt like shouting at him saying, “Aw come on man, you’re making it all too obvious now! How can we be expected to stay ignorant when you’re coming out with stuff like that?!”  What a plonker.  New World Order, my arse.

Sigh.  My point though is that creativity arises from having a problem.  Pretending that there’s a problem does seem to create a lot of solutions to problems.  But pretending there’s a problem hints at a kind of psychological malaise.  And if our entire world economy (which is there for providing solutions to problems, such as the need for food, entertainment, electrical goods so we can interact with the world and know what’s going on, etc) is really a vast system of solutions to problems which aren’t really there – (lets face it, sabre tooth tigers aren’t as much of an issue nowadays) then what really needs to be fixed is our collectively maladjusted psyche!  We badly need to stop feeling so afraid and just enjoy life without becoming entranced by the vast illusion that these guys are constantly creating.  It’s those guys that are fucked up – not us!  They’re fucking OUR shit up!

So, given that the real issue with the world is this collective psychological maladjustment, what’s the creative solution to that particular problem?  (Feel free to reply with comments – it’d be great to get a discussion going – genuine, real creativity for the right reasons is good for the soul.)

Personally though, I probably shouldn’t really be trading stocks.  It does take over your life… I lose track of the number of times I check the share price of the stocks I’ve bought.

The problem I have is when I look at the world, all I see is closed doors, brick walls and people who inwardly desperately want to meaningfully connect with each other but either tell themselves they can’t or won’t because they think they’re better or can’t or won’t for some other reason.  Society looks like a very difficult place to me.  But I guess we all have to start from the beginning.

Here’s my advice to myself and anyone who’s listening :

• Stop trading stocks.   They’re a mug’s game.
• Stop watching/listening to the news.  It’s of no benefit to you and will only serve to bring your vibration down to a level of fear.  There is no need for it.
• If we are to change the way the world sees itself, the best way to do so is to actively visualise a better one.  I came up with a techniques based on the idea of pratyahara (sensory withdrawal) which has already worked wonders for me.  Put a blindfold over your eyes and earplugs in your ears and lie on your bed when it’s dark outside so there’s as little light getting to your eyes as possible.  Make sure it’s quiet too.  Disconnect from your sense and focus on your breathing entirely.  Make it a meditation.  Then start to use your imagination.  Visualise yourself having beautiful interactions with everyone you meet, you loving everyone and everyone getting on well – or whatever resonates for you.  Keep doing this daily as a ritual and watch the world change before your very eyes…
• Once you’ve visualised – act!  Your thoughts, feelings and actions (James Rays 3-for-3 as he calls it) have to all be in harmony for anything to manifest.  So once you’ve thought and visualised – get acting!  Physically do it and see how good it feels.

I think that’s enough of a start to get you thinking of your own ideas.  I used this idea last night to attract a woman and came into close proximity with two lovely girls today.  There wasn’t much I could say to them at the time for various reasons (still need to work on my own acting skills…) but hell, it felt damn good.

OK, that’s enough rambling for one night.  Let’s just all stop listening to all the NWO bullshit and start creating a better world.

Sirius.